Existance is shit. Who needs it anyway? Are we all just cowards for not taking our own pointless lives? Do we live for the pleasure of another fine meal, some orgasm here and there, a handshake with a friend? And, What are friends anyway?
Ok so I have a blog again, and again I have a place to spill my bilge, which is better than any friend or girlfriend. Many can listen, but nobody responds with the elegance of a blog software: “Successfuly posted. Thank you.”
Ok that’s it. It’s been a while since i’ve updated this journal. A lot has happened. I’ve found the love of my life, and we’re engaged, I’ve opened my own company, and things are not looking too bad. I’ve also created my own personal blog here: http://www.skaag.net
Looks like i’m no longer going to update this blog. It was nice, LiveJournal, but with all due respect (and a lot is due), I am on my own now 😉
Thanks a lot! 🙂
Wow, what a year…!
And how sleazy my previous post is 😉
However, there is no point in hiding what is human within us.
I have a few default options with women… There’s this 21 year old girl who has no problem getting intimate with me. She is not a ripe fruit in terms of a relationship, but she makes for great fun, and besides, if she would not hang around with me, she would be hanging with married men (which is exactly what she did last week before I re-initiated contact with her).
Then, there’s a few more options. Some say they want to marry me, but I am not ready for that kinda thing right now. It seems like my life is on a crossroad right now, with my career, and I don’t know yet what I might do when something happens that will push me to make a decision.
And yet, I keep looking for love, because I need love… what am I hoping for? that I will find a woman so compelling and amazing, that I will have no choice but to somehow settle and build a life?
Most of my friends are now married. It seems like they are doing well… but then, who knows when the bomb lands? NOBODY expects the polish (eh, Spanish) inquisition!
That’s life, forever – men in general, want things to be simple. Women are much more complex creatures, and want different things. Doesn’t take a genius mind to know that. I actually know many exceptions, on both sides.
So how to cope with the situation? there’s definitely not a quantitative balance between the complex and simplistic people, definitely not between the sexes. Add to that the fact that you actually need chemistry, once you DO find a woman who’s personality suits you, and add to that the fact that you are not always ready for a relationship – where does that leave us?! the chance are reduced to, what… zero?! 🙂